day 10 - negatives & positives...

okkk, this post is fr yesterday, which is against my set rule....but i hv a real reason fr it...there are days wen u dont feel ok, wen yr dormant negative feelings from a past stir up, rear their ugly head n spoil yr precious present time...n i was a victim of dat yday....on such days no amnt of positivity helps someone like me...its just brood tym, with the effect dat it spills over into my interactions vid e one arnd me....since communication at such tyms is at an all-tym low, there are chances dat the negativity transfers to ppl arnd us as well... And dats not ok....just not ok...so as someone ritely told me one day, on such days its betta dat u stay alone, not sulk in public and spoil e one's day....trust me tym alone vid ourselves heals our agony faster...n helps prevent transfer of unwanted negativity to our near n dear ones....! So i didnt blog yday coz i didnt want to put up a sob-blogpost :D

this brings me to the qn...y does a terrible past come bak to haunt us ....n who decides d frequency...? My sober-state guess on dis is dat we dont live in d present most of our lives.....its either tooo muddled in d past or too puzzled by d future...! Also our past demons will not get exorcised till we learn to love and forgive ourselves, till we respect what we stand for, and till we learn to take the lesson (however bitter it tastes), internalise it and move on....
Moving on seems easy but its not....a lot of associations, mental imagery, mashhed thoughts, words and actions link us to our past...their hold on us is so strong dat a momentary seemingly innocuous memory can trigger a chain reaction....(our brains r d best supercomputers!) and boom, we get transported...literally time-travel into d past.... And as someone said, of all the things that one wishes for, the saddest ones are those that begin with....'it might have been'....so, it might have been different if i had dun this, or if i had not dun dat....but we forget...its already over n out.....! Now pick yrself up, pray dat u're able to break free of d shackles of d past and truly move on....no looking back now....(as harish tells me for my fitness regime - keep walking...:D
I promise there wont be any break on account of this reason ever again...
Ciao...